I wanted to say thank you to everyone. You guys have put up with me and been there for me for the longest time. Everything you guys have done for me... You have no idea how much I appreciate it.
However, I think it's time to make my leave. Am I permanently leaving? I will not say yes. There is always the chance I'll come back. I don't make promises like that. I do think you deserve an explanation as to why I'm leaving.
Since last year, I've been without my computer. Digital art has been my preferred medium for years. It would motivate me to work on my traditional art. Without it, I've lost a lot of motivation and interest in drawing. Everything I draw now causes me to cringe because I've started to lose interest.
There's also the fact I haven't been okay for a long time. My mental health has not been that great for a long time. It's sometimes hard to keep because I will constantly think no one will ever understand me or even care about me. Yes, I know people care and love me. It's just hard to believe sometimes because all I feel like is no one wants to talk to me. I'm a person who wants to talk, and I get sad when I told I'm annoying or to shut up.
That's where a lot of this problem stemmed from. It's so bad I'm crying as I type this. I just... want things to get better. I want to be able to smile and be happy. Not constantly be in depression and cry until the point I have a bad headache.
All in all, I need things to get better before I can return. I need my motivation back, and I need to be physically and mentally better. Otherwise, it's not fun anymore. It'll just feel like a chore.
If you want to keep in contact with me, send me a note. That way I can give you my contacts on Facebook.
I'm sorry for things happening like this. Also, thank you to anyone who took the time to read this.